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its ok to cry

dennis77 — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 22:22:48 +0000

too many times we hear the same old things
when sorrow comes in like a fog its a display of typical human beings
they tell you to be strong tell you not to lose hope
as if tears are a faulty way to cope.
Its been rough before in the seasons of our lives
And I am sure there will be other times we will cry
sadness is a way of mourning, not so much a loss, but a chapters end
sorrow’s tears is the dew of our lives,
watering the memories of good times past
Which grow into memories that will last.
Tears are not weakness but strength
because with every tear, fear and regret roll away
down your cheek never to be seen again.
so next time sadness overtakes you; remember that hope, not strength will see you through
and tears will go away and despite
pain sorrow defeat and loss you will be ready for another day!

zombie chronicles

dennis77 — Tue, 03 Nov 2009 21:29:30 +0000

today
i feel so human! Its like my Spirit got a beatdown and then gave up hands down
and my flesh is parading around like some sort of movie star
waiting to taste blood and leave another scar
wretched man that I am, For i follow after sinful scent while inward i die!
where is my passion? I lost it in the midst of a fight today
im the only one to blame because I let men tell me
im not good enough. im not strong enough, Im not all things you need me to be enough!! But inward, flatlines begin to peak, Heaven’s voice begins to speak “arise dry bones! muscles form skin cover! arise for I have given you light!!”

then Like a a desert landscape kissed by the seasons first rain. My inner man stnads with vigor wwith strenghth ready to overcome the carnal beast who tries to define Me!

Rise Up

dennis77 — Fri, 08 May 2009 22:21:45 +0000

the time has come
the line is drawn
the battle has already begun
get on your feet
get up off your bed
your time is now to rescue the dead
Christ has come to give you light
Use it now to chase off the night!!!

Chorus:
rise up and hear the spirit calling
are you ready to give your Life
rise up and see this world is dying
are you ready to stand and fight
rise up and rise up and rise up
and give out a battle cry

there is no time
for you to look away
you’ve been given a gift dont throw it away
Jesus gave his life so you
can give your life to His Cause
take a moment to catch your breath
pick up your sword and fight to the death
take no prisoners chase your fears
Its time to let your battle cry be heard!

We are kings and priests made for battleonly to surrender to Christ Mighty hand his perfect Love
Lift your hands to Jesus!!!

Despite

dennis77 — Wed, 06 May 2009 18:27:29 +0000

I was sharing with a friend about one of my favorite words because it displayed God’s continued commitment to see us though to the end> Its the word despite think about it Like this:

Christ loves us despite:

our sins,failures, inconsistnecies, lying lips, broken hearts, our broken dreams,our fears, broken covenants, defaulting on contracts, swearing, indecision, hate, wavering mind, childish attitudes, reluctant obedience, civil disobediance, griping, crying, pointing our fingers , our wicked hearts, murderous tongues, immoral thoughts,fornications, adulteries, selfishness, He loves me despite Me listen!! He loves me despite Me!! hE LOVES ME DESPITE ME!!! OH HOW HE lOVES!!!

My thoughts

dennis77 — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:01:33 +0000

Dennis on Religion after reading james 1:26-27

Is not an adherence to rules and regulations to keep an unseen god satisfied.Religion should be a way of life that reveals an unseen God to all mankind.

Dennis on Holiness

Holiness is not a state of perfection. its a state of resurrection. New Life, new body new way of living!

Dennis on being tough

tears during extreme adversity are not signs of weakness they are a sign of humanity and if you cant leap over a tall building in a single bound, your pants might as well be on fire because your not fooling anyone.

Dennis on preparing for parenthood

Its either us or them.

Dennis on Love and marriage

Its hard work but worth every drop of blood sweat and tear

Dennis on Evolution

dennis77 — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 15:31:57 +0000

Dennis on evolution

I have heard some say that aherence to the theory of evolution is a matter of common sense and logic. then those same proponents go into the nuts and bolts of why this is a plausible idea. Yet in all the so called logic within scientific ideology in explaining this popular theory, one does not ever see an animal or species turn from one species to an all together individual species after an extended period of time. so logically i would have to believe that man has given birth to man and animal to animal no matter how much ones family member or friend could remind you of apes.

The life We’ve always dreamed about is screaming for release

dennis77 — Fri, 13 Feb 2009 22:33:55 +0000

I have had the good pleasure of reading the book of Colossians in theBible for a month now. I have tried to read other stuff but I feel the spirit calling me back to this book. Iknow exactly why also. Its because it turns out that im more human than I thought. I mean can you believe it? All this time I thought I was more spirit and more in tune with who God was because I was His child and i am a passionate worshipper. then I looked in the mirror, and I saw a pimple here a scar there and that was only after I put on my glasses. there staring back at me was flesh and blood,imperfections, sickness and male pattern baldness.. ioh and by they way if anyone is reading this I fail also. I have broken promises, lied including to myself, cheated, and complained.the book of Colossians 3:1,2,3,4 read like this:

^1-2 So if you’re serious about living this new resurrection life with Christ, act like it. Pursue the things over which Christ presides. Don’t shuffle along, eyes to the ground, absorbed with the things right in front of you. Look up, and be alert to what is going on around Christ—that’s where the action is. See things from his perspective.

^3-4Your old life is dead. Your new life, which is your real life—even though invisible to spectators—is with Christ in God. He is your life. When Christ (your real life, remember) shows up again on this earth, you’ll show up, too—the real you, the glorious you. Meanwhile, be content with obscurity, like Christ.(msg.)

so here it is the reason why I was cooed into meditate daily on these sacred words, passionately and lovingly held against my better judgement to reminisce on the colossae text. Lately i have fallen into a rut. you know those days, when your dreams are just that. the closest you come to those dreams is when you’re hugging your pillow at night. Yup those days when ” Business as usual” becomes so ingrained in your mind that you look forward for a raise in 6 months than dare to daydream of working for yourself which gives a bad taste in your mouth. alas, the days when we lose heart; no not lose heart but we are so tired of letdown and obscurity that we take our heart and put in under our piles of the little things and daily grind wishing we could take a pill and forget we ever wanted to be a singer/songwriter, a newscaster, own our own business or go into fulltime ministry. Christ so delicately and simply gives us the crux of the matter. Dont Lose Hope! dont lose heart! Dont keep looking at the way things are and look to Him, His truths and His Vision. Its Christ s Kingdom that we must promote, produce for and rally for. One of my former bible college teachers would always Say ” you must all ways keep a Gods Eye View Of life, if not youll view life in survival mode , like a bird, living every moment just to get by”- George Cantu, former proffesor for hermenuetics. so Here it is if you are feeling or have ever felt like nothing seems to work in your favor or youre just “trudging along” take the book of Colossians read it , study it chew it up in your mind and let god redifine you, better yet Learn to define yourself By who He knows you as

Hungry

dennis77 — Tue, 21 Oct 2008 21:08:21 +0000

Hunger- an uneasy sensation occasioned by the lack of food
Here is the occasion. I am 31 yrs old and ive had my fill of mediocrity and sin
Ive tasted bitterness and fear. Ive tasted disappointments and tears
Ive tasted mundane and even have sucked on the marrow of fame and fortune
Ive stuffed my face with human food but still the hunger grows
Some say Its thirst and as I down ounce after ounce of water it doesnt get any better!
Im tired of my circumstances and the complacency im tired of tarrying
here where Iam hoping something bigger better more glamerous will come my way.
Its like im a warrior forced to trade my sword in for a till.
My arrows and shield for a job where sitting is the only verb that comnsumes my time
sitting waiting, wondering. I dont know, all I know Is im hungry for more of Christ more of His life, more of walking in completeness with him. Please dont misunderstand its not that im not content wtih where God Has me for this season. Its just Ive seen God move in exponential ways in my life and right now Id rather sit and watch Tv or consume my energy doing stuff to keep me busy when all along my heart is yearning, yearning oh so desperately, yearning unrelentlessly for Christ and walking in HIs presence, wALKING CLOSER AND KNOWING hIM, MOVING IN HIS LIGHT
moving in his willspeaking his words, praying his prayers, emulating his ways and establishing His Kingdom!

Wake up!!

dennis77 — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 19:33:43 +0000

the night has been long, the enemy strong but you’ve held your ground. Yet with every slice you weaken and now you are just saving face. Its been long since you remember what the quiet was, what your purpose was, what it was to sit beside beside still waters. your breathing is shallow because every deep breath reopens past wounds. your spiritual eyes are dim and on a good day you can hear a faint whisper but still its more like an echo of many miles away, when days were actually something to look forward to. before fresh water is what you drank with satisfaction but now bitter water seizes your mouth. You pray and nothing. You cry and still silence. you’re in a daze its easier to walk away then it is to confront. You trudge through life wondering in dissatisfaction about the dreams that have fallen ruin in our lives. You don’t care! You simply do not care!! Look though, the east is ringing with a new excitement. A faint whisper grows louder as you lie in disdain and disbelief. The trees are shouting! the oceans are thundering “The Master is returning!!” Feel the new life penetrating your heart. Life that is seeping from the inside out. Then the Life that you now see begins to fade away as light penetrates your dim eyes and despite wounds and regrets you feel young again and then in an instant you take a deep breath and as you exhale you wake up!! you wake up to the miracle behind the curses, the kisses behind the tears. the refreshing rain after sweltering heat of sorrow. you wake up to your Lover whispering. “Ive been waitng for you to follow. I have returned for you and now we will rejoice in each others presence with laughter and good comapny. You have fed yourself with sadness now drink my Joy. For its your heart that I love. Its your eyes I long to gaze in.It is your World Ive come to save!!”

I really didnt deserve this much Grace

dennis77 — Sat, 03 May 2008 21:49:48 +0000

Can you imagine being plagued with a disease that would cause you to convulse while you lay powerless and cannot control the outcome of this disease. Imagine just for a moment people looking at you with pitiful stares. Im sure everyone who has ever been afflicted with epilepsy knows what I’m talking about. Ok so Check this out! I was taking drugs to slow my brain from all these electric shocks, these drugs were so strong i would sleep for hours and even days. events like these literally freaked my parents out. So off to the doctor’s office I went. Then he would send me home with a souvenir bag full of uppers. So here Id go no sleep for days on end and then back to sleeping and not to mention whenever(I’m about 10 yrs old at this time) i forgot to take my meds, like any normal boy at my age would, convulsions came trumpeting into my so called life. It was tragic! Looking back at this time I think no little boy should go through this. Then I begin to think about this time and how God’s hand was moving in my life. I remember a story in the new testament where Jesus and his disciples were face to face with a blind man who was blind since birth. the msg says it like this:

Walking down the street, Jesus saw a man blind from birth. His disciples asked, “Rabbi, who sinned: this man or his parents, causing him to be born blind?” 3-5Jesus said, “You’re asking the wrong question. You’re looking for someone to blame. There is no such cause-effect here. Look instead for what God can do. We need to be energetically at work for the One who sent me here, working while the sun shines. john 9:1-3

Wow amazing!! Christ is letting his disciples know a very important attribute of His power and his focus. He is letting them know its about his Glory. This man was born blind to to one day be healed by the King of Glory so that the first thing He saw was the King Himself. Incredible!! I think Christ was saying the true way to look at life and circumstances is seeing Jesus first. Its all about him. One of my favorite Quotes reads like this ” Obstacles are what one sees when you take your eyes off the prize.”

So going back to my story So there I was an eleven year old who had been told by two different doctors that i wasn’t going to outgrow this one as so many other children do and My life would be a slew of convulsions, E.E.G. tests and doctors visits. Then it happened. I didn’t really know God but I knew somehow after praying a simple childhood prayer I felt Him. I felt my body and my brain different, granted I didn’t know God like I know him now. I didn’t know what speaking in tongues was or the definition of words like sanctification or deism or eschatology. i just prayed and Grace came. Simple as that. The time the day came when my medication was due and I got all of them and threw them away. oh yeah there is something to be said about parents who have faith in their son and more importantly their faith in God that they trusted me in my decision. Yet from that day on I never have taken any medication, the doctors couldn’t find out anything and I’m as normal as anyone reading this blog( well then again I’m not that normal but i don’t have epilepsy)