Wake up!!

the night has been long, the enemy strong but you’ve held your ground. Yet with every slice you weaken and now you are just saving face. Its been long since you remember what the quiet was, what your purpose was, what it was to sit beside beside still waters. your breathing is shallow because every deep breath reopens past wounds. your spiritual eyes are dim and on a good day you can hear a faint whisper but still its more like an echo of many miles away, when days were actually something to look forward to. before fresh water is what you drank with satisfaction but now bitter water seizes your mouth. You pray and nothing. You cry and still silence. you’re in a daze its easier to walk away then it is to confront. You trudge through life wondering in dissatisfaction about the dreams that have fallen ruin in our lives. You don’t care! You simply do not care!! Look though, the east is ringing with a new excitement. A faint whisper grows louder as you lie in disdain and disbelief. The trees are shouting! the oceans are thundering “The Master is returning!!” Feel the new life penetrating your heart. Life that is seeping from the inside out. Then the Life that you now see begins to fade away as light penetrates your dim eyes and despite wounds and regrets you feel young again and then in an instant you take a deep breath and as you exhale you wake up!! you wake up to the miracle behind the curses, the kisses behind the tears. the refreshing rain after sweltering heat of sorrow. you wake up to your Lover whispering. “Ive been waitng for you to follow. I have returned for you and now we will rejoice in each others presence with laughter and good comapny. You have fed yourself with sadness now drink my Joy. For its your heart that I love. Its your eyes I long to gaze in.It is your World Ive come to save!!”

I really didnt deserve this much Grace

Can you imagine being plagued with a disease that would cause you to convulse while you lay powerless and cannot control the outcome of this disease. Imagine just for a moment people looking at you with pitiful stares. Im sure everyone who has ever been afflicted with epilepsy knows what I’m talking about. Ok so Check this out! I was taking drugs to slow my brain from all these electric shocks, these drugs were so strong i would sleep for hours and even days. events like these literally freaked my parents out. So off to the doctor’s office I went. Then he would send me home with a souvenir bag full of uppers. So here Id go no sleep for days on end and then back to sleeping and not to mention whenever(I’m about 10 yrs old at this time) i forgot to take my meds, like any normal boy at my age would, convulsions came trumpeting into my so called life. It was tragic! Looking back at this time I think no little boy should go through this. Then I begin to think about this time and how God’s hand was moving in my life. I remember a story in the new testament where Jesus and his disciples were face to face with a blind man who was blind since birth. the msg says it like this:

Walking down the street, Jesus saw a man blind from birth. His disciples asked, “Rabbi, who sinned: this man or his parents, causing him to be born blind?” 3-5Jesus said, “You’re asking the wrong question. You’re looking for someone to blame. There is no such cause-effect here. Look instead for what God can do. We need to be energetically at work for the One who sent me here, working while the sun shines. john 9:1-3

Wow amazing!! Christ is letting his disciples know a very important attribute of His power and his focus. He is letting them know its about his Glory. This man was born blind to to one day be healed by the King of Glory so that the first thing He saw was the King Himself. Incredible!! I think Christ was saying the true way to look at life and circumstances is seeing Jesus first. Its all about him. One of my favorite Quotes reads like this ” Obstacles are what one sees when you take your eyes off the prize.”

So going back to my story So there I was an eleven year old who had been told by two different doctors that i wasn’t going to outgrow this one as so many other children do and My life would be a slew of convulsions, E.E.G. tests and doctors visits. Then it happened. I didn’t really know God but I knew somehow after praying a simple childhood prayer I felt Him. I felt my body and my brain different, granted I didn’t know God like I know him now. I didn’t know what speaking in tongues was or the definition of words like sanctification or deism or eschatology. i just prayed and Grace came. Simple as that. The time the day came when my medication was due and I got all of them and threw them away. oh yeah there is something to be said about parents who have faith in their son and more importantly their faith in God that they trusted me in my decision. Yet from that day on I never have taken any medication, the doctors couldn’t find out anything and I’m as normal as anyone reading this blog( well then again I’m not that normal but i don’t have epilepsy)

Its all pei weis fault

In the 30 yrs i have been inhabiting this water-based planet, there have been a lot of lessons I have learned in all areas of life. One of the biggest lessons really hit me like a runaway mack truck on a crash course with my complacency and ignorance. When I moved to Austin, circa April 2007, i was introduced to one of the most fantastic chinese food chain rain restaurants called, Peiweis chinese cuisine. the ambience is very cool the food is savory and mouthwatering and well i cannot say one bad thing about this fine establishment. (dark music with a lot of bass)Enter the complexities of being raised on Chinese buffets, and now i’m at a loss for words, it simply does not compare. for those who did not understand what I just said im simply saying this. I went to a Chinese buffet recommended by a coworker who went on about how great this buffet was in San Marcos tx. So after much convincing I decided to partake in the buffet. as I ate i began to feel contempt for Pei Weis. iT WAS THEIR FAULT THAT I CANT WALK IN TO a low budget BUFFET AND ENJOY LOW QUALITY FOOD. iTS THEIR FAULT!!!   Pei weis introduced me to fine dining (your probably thinking, honey theres much more better places to go to) yet but for discussion we’ll leave the restaurant as it is. So As a human i picked up a very deep insight through this experience and I honestly believe It was God speaking through a still small voice.  In life being a Christian does not promise anything but an abundant life and this insight falls into experiential segments of discipleship. true Christ followers have certain experience that causes a change in them every step of the way. They can go back to their past sins (use your imagination here) but emptiness abides because its not the same contentment is just not enough but Joy holds precedence. Some of us can go back to living a mediocre life after a missions trip but its not the same the excitement of living in reckless abandon for Christ which  still stirs our heart to compare the mediocre with the majestic and finding that With Christ life might be rough but Glory is worth it. Id rather spend a day writing a song to Christ then spend a few hours drinking a few hours every night, passing out AND then wondering the next morning if there is any significance in our lives. Its all Christ fault, its him giving us glory instead of guile! bread instead of stones, fish instead of snakes life instead of death. Its all Christ Fault.    HOHUm!(not really) Life is Good Life in Christ is Is awesome!

The Me inside Me

well im supposed to put  ten things that not manny people know about me right’ Here goes:

1. I can play a lot of instruments  including but not limited to guitar ,bass,drums, keyboards, harmonica, cowbell and spoons

2. I ‘m usually very silly but can be serious ..Just ask my wife wink wink

3. My name backwards is Sinned. Hey what can I say “I once was Lost, but now im found….”

4.  C. s. Lewis is one of my literary heroes, gift ideas/ hint hint

5.  I’m actually not a full blood mexican

6.  Casey is my wife but she is not just my wife she is her own person/ Christ defines her

7. In high school, when dinosaurs roamed the earth,  iwas # 4 in my team and our team was 4 in the state

8. Once upon a March 05 concert, i met and spoke w/ Shaun groves

9.  I can sing almost any disney cartoon song  before toy story

10.  Im a song writer, singer, poet, preacher. Im a teacher a lover and sometimes a fighter, im a husband im a friend, I am a mighty man. im a counselor but i gladly receive counsel. I’m 6ft and sometimes my foot gets stuck in my mouth, thank God for A loving wife who loves me but loves christ more. well im out gone like donkey kong

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sometimes i wake up and wish i feel a little bit safer
or at least a little bit  stronger so im  able to hold out longer
in this world that doesnt make sense where people like to straddle the fence
a nation where people accept good and and throw away the best
im tired and hungry for something more than what I already get
tv dinners of the medias complacent mess. its dark outside
and all this is still running through my brain. lts like a spiritual runaway train.
so in the middle of the night make sure my wife is sleeping tight and I pour out my heart
To you through the night where are you at God. why cant i sleep
Why does this whole world seem to spin out of control I beat my chest
And wait for release will it come the hours roll by sweat upon my brow. dear God I need to hear your voice I need to know
Then you answer finally breaks through as dawn rises peace be still my child

The night the colors ran

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I find my self in a strange place again. the place where colors all blur into a faded yesterday.and then,

regret fills my mind if i only had more time to make a difeerence and touch a life

if only a kind word to slow this fast revolving world where youth withers and dreams seem to die

i want to see the colors how they are, the ones in front of me that need to see light to shine through their dark

so i stand and forget my lament i hold fast to nailed scarred hands heaven sent

and let crimson red turn me white again, so i may proceed to the place where living ” for Christ” is my prize and dying is my eternal gain

now thats totally off the chain

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